||[Sep. 15th, 2005|08:50 am]
My decision I make today will effect the rest of my life...|
to stay or to go...
I feel I'm carried down a cookie-cut path with one direction, thinking not for myself. What can I create from my own? What can I explore on my own accord? Where is the right time to jump out or stay in?
Careful slow thinking is required. Is there one direction, one path I belong down and failure everywhere else? Look how far I've come. What is failure? What is success? What brings satisfaction? What breaks the spirit and what restores it? Back to Open Space I may sing...
Missing yesterday, cherishing today, growing into a new creature.
Yes, I love teaching. I love inspiring. I love reaching. I have a place. I have a belonging. But...
why should I leave then? Why do I feel I can't go on? Am I giving up or am I making a good decision?
This is a one of a kind learning opportunity I have.
I am in it.